Last week,i have a fate to
have a little chat with my neighbor. Why i said fate, because it is a rare
opportunity we can chat. She was busy with her housework as a mom for three kid
and nanny for a few others children. It is very busy work. More busy than me. I
admit it.
Ok. Back to the topic. My
neighbor (herein kak A) ask me either i am busy recently since everyday i go
out from house. This is because mostly i am staying at house 3 or 4 day,each or
more. Two week is normally. I said yes, i have outside job that need me to go
out. Then kak A asking that study is hard work...means we are really busy. Then
i said that it just like we are working. If we are go office at 8 and back at 5
,does it considered busy?actually it is depend on ourself. If it not important
so we said we are busy. As said as Bahrudin Bekri in one of his novel...if i am
not mistaken, the novel title is "Lelaki berbaju merah".but here is
not the main story that i want to said here.
The conversation was rewind
me back to 1999, when my father started given me allowance RM 10 per week. This
is a lot during that time ok. As automatically,my mind set that my father is my
boss, he pay me go to school and study. I never asked for extra for five years
even i have a extra class since i go back home for lunch. But i will claimed if
i buy booked or anything that related to study. So that day, my job as a
student was started until now.
This thought that make me
never felt bored or think that study is burden but it also not the enjoy thing.
But same like working,not many of us that can work in our interest field.
Sometime we just don't know that field or that position is exist. But we can
fall in love with our job eventually. At the end we can manage and that job be
a part of our lives. Be the main schedule in our daily life. The most important
thing, that job become more important
than our parents,husband and kid. They all will be a number 2,3 or more. Don't
said that this is not. When you wake up, what is first thing that u think. I
have to wake up. I have a meting today, i have to finished yesterday report i
have to that and i have to this. Kid we just brought to nanny or pay the
caretaker.husband just do it yourself, not only you working, i am also working
so we must share the responsibility. Mom and dad, of course we don't call
everyday and if we are stay together they serve us not us serve them. For this
generation, we are mostly lucky because our parent has a pencen or not working
hard like previous generation. But in our plan what we want to archieved today
is work...work...and work....
So how i am want to work? I
am still can't accept the reality that i have to face this situation.
Officially Working. What position? What?and what? Don't work don't have
money...don't have money...how i want to survive....aishhhhh... I am still not
mature enough to accept this reality.
